Monday, April 09, 2012

Enlightenment on Rebirth

May we all be reminded of how incredibly great His power is to help those who believe in Him. It is that same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead. :)


I never really understood the significance of Easter. Not even until now. Someday soon I hope to gain full understanding of the feast of the Risen Lord. But for now, Easter will mean "rebirth" to me- that which was what happened to me last Sunday.

I didn't want to have Easter Lunch with the Asperas Clan. I wanted to just stay locked in my room and watch City Hunter the whole day. But mama didn't stop until I resigned to go. And quite honestly, at the end of the day, I was glad I did. I love my extended family. I love spending easy breezy Sundays with them. I love going out of towns with them. Don't get me wrong. I wouldn't have wanted to be a part of another family. It's just that recently, I've been feeling THE PRESSURE.

After graduation, all everyone could think of was where I will be working. There has been talks about different multi-national companies that they do recommend. I have been praying for this one company that I sent application email last week. AND all they could say was that I could still find a better job and a more prestigious company. I've been feeling judged and underestimated for days. I feel boxed. Like I can't decide anything about my life without them meddling with my decisions.

Most people have to deal with their parents. I have to deal with A WHOLE CLAN. :) So I brought my laptop and my "A Thousand Splendid Suns" book and intended to have lunch and spend the rest of the day isolated in the living room or somewhere else. BUT when lunch finally came, I couldn't resist listening to their stories, laughing at my cousins jokes, taking pictures of my silly nephews and just being one with the crowd- not you're ordinary crowd, but a family :)

And there it dawned on me, about how I am so fixated about them judging my choices when, really, all they want me to do is consider what they're saying. I was so fixated about them meddling with my decisions overlooking the fact that they just SINCERELY CARE. I was so fixated about them underestimating me, when in fact, they just have THAT HIGH high hopes for me.

Today I thank GOD for family. I thank GOD for the people who try to bring out the better people in them for you. I thank GOD for the people who DREAMS BIG for you. I thank GOD for the people who would stop their busy lives and spend lazy Sundays with you. I thank GOD for the people who would go the extra effort to drive to Alabang, prepare lunch and spend time with you.

I've never seen mama as happy as when she is with her siblings talking about family memories, shopping, recent buys, and planning future trips. They will be leaving for Singapore before the end of the month. :) I'm glad she's having the time of her life.

Friday, April 06, 2012

Graduation Pictures! :)

The Beauty in Waiting

I am IMPATIENT. The worst habit I have that I'm not proud of and that I have long been wanting to change is being late. I am always late because I procrastinate. I procrastinate because I don't like being done with everything that needed to be done only to find myself waiting. I am ridiculously impatient like that. I know, immature, right? But I can't be late anymore. And honestly, PATIENCE is what God has been trying to teach me for the longest time.

Come April 22nd, I will be officially done with college. Last week, I finished all my requirements for my undergraduate degree and this Monday all my grades are in. So that makes me a BUM from that day the grades were in until the recognition rites. But here I am, relentlessly looking for job opportunities and getting frustrated by the day. Wait, let me explain.

As soon as I found out that all my grades are in and that I am sure, as the rising sun, to graduate this April, I went looking for a job. I searched online and talked to employed friends about it. Got a decent number of offers actually from different companies. That gives me the assurance that I won't be unemployed for so long. I'm blessed with friends who are more than willing to refer me to their HR managers. Anyway, but there's this job position that I am really hoping to get. Thing is, I found out about it just this week and I sent my application email Wednesday afternoon-half a day before the super long weekend holiday in the Philippines. I was actually hoping that the HR would reply before the day ends. But they didn't. I was also hoping that they will call soon but they didn't. Well, it's the holidays anyway. BUT I am really starting to be impatient about it; especially when I found out that Monday is still declared a holiday. So that makes Wednesday through Monday next week holidays! That means, the soonest possible time for them to call me is Tuesday morning. It's that long! :(

Went Visita Iglesia last night with the extended family and all I could ask for was this job opportunity. To be honest, I'm confused. I've been thinking that I'm not sure if I really want the position or if it was just what's the best opportunity I was handed over at the moment. I'm not sure if God has better opportunities in store for me. I'm not sure where He wants me to be. And all I can ask for is enlightenment.

And then it dawned on me, that I have been so engrossed in the promise of tomorrow than what today holds. It dawned on me, that I was so caught up with finding the perfect job and getting employed that I forgot to take a break after all the hard work that I've been through in College before diving into the Corporate World. And most of all, I forgot, that the holy week is here because it is the time of the year when we commemorate the day when Jesus died on the cross to save humanity.

So, I will do my best to be patient. I will do my best to take my time to rest my soul. I will do my best to commemorate the greatest demonstration of true love that mankind has ever had. I will do my best to clear my mind and spend the rest of holy week connecting to our Creator in the hopes that He will enlighten me on my real purpose here on earth. That which will hopefully give me a clue on which job to pursue. :)
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