Monday, December 31, 2012

Finacle Central Support Department



I remember the night you told me "I never thought such a smart girl could make such a stupid mistake". And I answered back "This isn't a mistake. It's a choice. And I don't care if it's stupid.".

I guess you were right all along- about it being stupid. BUT even after everything, I still don't think it was a mistake. Unfortunate, perhaps. Heartbreaking, to be exact. But never a mistake.

Monday, December 24, 2012

All Grown Up


It's not everyday you'll find genuine friendship that NO TIME nor DISTANCE can diminish. I love them both to pieces. :)

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Full Abandon


Hormone Crazy

Today was a bad day. The kind of bad day you'd want to forget. The kind of bad day that you wished never happened because every single moment that passed by reminded you how miserable you are.

Today was a bad day.The kind of bad day that keeps you up all night, wondering what's wrong with you. Pondering on every single mistake that you did in the past. Asking the One above what you did to deserve this.

Today was a bad day. The kind of bad day that makes you feel cold inside. The kind of bad that makes you realize how empty you feel. And how desperate you are for moments of genuine happiness.

Today was a bad day. The kind of bad day that you thought was okay. The kind of bad day that deceived you into thinking that you were happy when in fact you were just belting out hollow laughter, forced cheerfulness and empty smiles.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Dare to Be

When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.
When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.
When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.
When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.
When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.
When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.
When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going.
When times are tough, dare to be tougher.
When love hurts you, dare to love again.
When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal. 
When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.
When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.
When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.
When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.
When the day has ended, dare to feel as you’ve done your best.

 Dare to be the best you can – At all times, Dare to be!”
 ― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Saturday, September 29, 2012

"Stop rewinding. Press play. Move forward, but not fast forward. Align yourself in God's timezone. You may not be there yet where you want to be, but at least you are no longer what you used to be. The best is yet to come, but it has already begun."

Saturday, August 11, 2012


Father: Matt, take a shot at something. Don't think about it too much. Just take the shot. 

Matt: I don't even know what to aim.

Father: Anywhere. Everywhere. Just take wild shots. Hell it's something just to hear the gun go off.

Run Away From With Me


I never fail to say the wrong things. I'm a self-destruct mess. So stay away. Run if you must. Save yourself from the disaster that is me.

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

“I had hoped to be disliked by most, not by way of rebellion, but by way of excellence, disdain for the habitual, and the common man’s inability to grasp this. The act of being scorned? I saw it as a victory, my irreverent boast against this world which could never fully quench me.” ― Coco J. Ginger

Monday, June 11, 2012

A Whole New World


I've started working for a local company a week short of a month now. It's funny because I've been getting raised eyebrows from my family, friends and previous schoolmates. They couldn't fathom the fact that I chose to work for a local banking institution than the other multi-national companies that offered me jobs.

To be honest, I'm not so sure I made the best choice myself. I wouldn't deny that every time I get belittled by anyone in particular, a part of my heart cringes in insecurity. I wouldn't deny that when I think about the other bigger companies that I turned down, I part of me wonders what if. But I know that the Lord will not lead me to my downfall. I know that if I held onto Him and the principles He has taught me, He will make me prosper wherever I am-no matter how barren my place seems to the world.


Monday, May 21, 2012

Been thinking about you a lot lately. I don't know why or how it all started. All I know is that you've been constantly in my thoughts and in most of my conversations with one of my closest friends (one of the few whom I told about "us"). I remember the days you fetch me after my class or the nights you drive me home. I remember the kulitan and the de-stressed feeling from random small talks and the surprising wisdom in more serious conversations. I remember you. I remember us. In the gym. In the tambayan. Along the halls of Melchor Hall. Driving through the Araneta traffic. I miss you. I miss us. 


 So tell me please, because I'm dying to know, do I ever cross your mind?

FOOD: Shaker's Chicken and Mojos


My brother got his first salary from his internship today. Yey for him. HAHA. So after celebrating the Holy Eucharist at Midtown, Manila he treated us over at Shakey's for lunch. Yey for us!

I really love Shakey's Chicken and mojos. Sinful but delicious!

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Confidence

Is something I never fully had.


I never fully believed in myself and the things I can do. I think that most people expect too much from me and I always end up disappointing them :/ These people include myself. I am almost always apprehensive of the judgement from the people around me. It scares me too much to focus on simply just doing the things that I love and the things that needed to be done. Sometimes, I feel the strong desire to do good that it overwhelms me so much I end up simply just failing. I wish to face life with confidence.

I wish to go through the days with the courage to do the things the way I want it done without having to worry about what the other people would think of me.

I vow to be feisty, inspiring, exciting and contagious! So help me GOD.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Harry Potter Book Lockets

Two of my friends will be celebrating their birthdays this week and I don't have gifts and outfits for them yet. :((((( Thinking of buying this one for K though. She loves Harry Potter, although I'm not so sure what she feels about funky accessories. I asked J to fish which HP book she liked the most and I'm planning to have it shipped to her house on her actual birthday. :)

The Legend Villas


Every year my uncle gets a free overnight stay with breakfast buffet for two at the Legend Villas in Mandaluyong. This year, he gave his privilege to my brother and me as a graduation gift. :) Sweet.

It was not your ordinary hotel. Not the usual ridiculously luxurious vertical high rise hotel. The Legend Villas is as the name implies a spacious compound of luxurious villas in the heart of the metro. As you enter the place, you will be welcomed by the Lola Maria restaurant of the hotel. I'm not a morning person and I don't usually eat much during breakfast that's why I opted to give up the free breakfast buffet to Mama and Daddy so I won't be able to tell if the food was great. I read about it from foodie blogs though and I heard the food and the ambiance were 4 out of 5 stars. But do watch out for an update because I'm really thinking about coming back just to try their lunch buffet. :)

There's free use of the gym, swimming pool and jacuzzi for all the guests. The gym and the pool area are open 24/7 but you have to sign a waiver should you be using them beyond 6PM because there will be no lifeguard by then. The rates are pricey but the place is not as luxurious as its price tag says it should be. The Legend Villas give its guests a homey but stylish ambiance with its Spanish inspired interiors. Simple but complete. Functionality without sacrificing style. 

We got a Premier Villa for ourselves. It's a 2-level fully air-conditioned villa with a spacious bedroom, 2 bathrooms, a mini bar, 2 flat screen televisions, 2 landlines, and a private jacuzzi! Hell yeah (just for the private jacuzzi)! It was nice of the hotel to provide plates, utensils, an electric stove and other kitchenwares for free. Room service is available from 6AM to 10PM. The only downside for me is that there was no cable TV during our overnight stay but the internet connection was ridiculously fast! I was able to download 7 episodes of SUITS in 2 hours! Wild. :))

The best part of the stay for me was having the private jacuzzi all by myself that night. Oh yeah! :) It was my much needed ME time. :)

I enjoyed my stay but I say the accommodations was not worth the price tag. You don't stay in hotels just to have a place to sleep over at, you pay the price for the luxury of the place. I have access to cable TV, unlimited internet connection, more stylish kitchenwares, phone lines, hot and cold water, and AC units at home. I wouldn't pay 7000 pesos/night just for that.There are a number of other hotels that an offer more for the same price.





Friday, May 11, 2012

Of Undying Persistence and Personal Calling

Erap must have really lived to become a public figure.

The news about former president Estrada transferring to Sta. Mesa has reined in the prime time broadcast for days now. The news reports did not hide the fact that this is a political move as the former president is planning to run as Mayor of Manila at the end of Lim's term.

I have to admit, I found it ridiculous how one man, as old as the former president, would still be this persistent to pursue his career in politics. Having been elected and eventually impeached as president of the Philippines, who would've thought that he'd still want to go back to being a part of the local government unit.

Today, he registered as an official voter of the said municipality. He has also allegedly paid his taxes in the LGU. You've got to admit how admirable his persistence is. The local government and being a public figure must have been what he believed is his calling.

As a fresh graduate from the University of the Philippines, I have started my search for my own calling. That profession that will make me want to wake up early in the morning. That profession that I was carefully crafted to be good at. That profession that will bring out the best in me. That profession that will give me direction. That profession that will provide for me and my family.

I am an Industrial Engineer but I never allowed titles and degrees to limit what I can and cannot do. I want to be able to envision BIG DREAMS and transform them to great realities. I want to be able to use the knowledge and the abilities that the Lord has blessed me with to make a difference in other peoples' lives. I want to be able to use these blessings to live a life that could give glory His name.

Monday, April 09, 2012

Enlightenment on Rebirth

May we all be reminded of how incredibly great His power is to help those who believe in Him. It is that same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead. :)

 ***


I never really understood the significance of Easter. Not even until now. Someday soon I hope to gain full understanding of the feast of the Risen Lord. But for now, Easter will mean "rebirth" to me- that which was what happened to me last Sunday.

I didn't want to have Easter Lunch with the Asperas Clan. I wanted to just stay locked in my room and watch City Hunter the whole day. But mama didn't stop until I resigned to go. And quite honestly, at the end of the day, I was glad I did. I love my extended family. I love spending easy breezy Sundays with them. I love going out of towns with them. Don't get me wrong. I wouldn't have wanted to be a part of another family. It's just that recently, I've been feeling THE PRESSURE.

After graduation, all everyone could think of was where I will be working. There has been talks about different multi-national companies that they do recommend. I have been praying for this one company that I sent application email last week. AND all they could say was that I could still find a better job and a more prestigious company. I've been feeling judged and underestimated for days. I feel boxed. Like I can't decide anything about my life without them meddling with my decisions.

Most people have to deal with their parents. I have to deal with A WHOLE CLAN. :) So I brought my laptop and my "A Thousand Splendid Suns" book and intended to have lunch and spend the rest of the day isolated in the living room or somewhere else. BUT when lunch finally came, I couldn't resist listening to their stories, laughing at my cousins jokes, taking pictures of my silly nephews and just being one with the crowd- not you're ordinary crowd, but a family :)

And there it dawned on me, about how I am so fixated about them judging my choices when, really, all they want me to do is consider what they're saying. I was so fixated about them meddling with my decisions overlooking the fact that they just SINCERELY CARE. I was so fixated about them underestimating me, when in fact, they just have THAT HIGH high hopes for me.

Today I thank GOD for family. I thank GOD for the people who try to bring out the better people in them for you. I thank GOD for the people who DREAMS BIG for you. I thank GOD for the people who would stop their busy lives and spend lazy Sundays with you. I thank GOD for the people who would go the extra effort to drive to Alabang, prepare lunch and spend time with you.


I've never seen mama as happy as when she is with her siblings talking about family memories, shopping, recent buys, and planning future trips. They will be leaving for Singapore before the end of the month. :) I'm glad she's having the time of her life.

Friday, April 06, 2012

Graduation Pictures! :)




The Beauty in Waiting


I am IMPATIENT. The worst habit I have that I'm not proud of and that I have long been wanting to change is being late. I am always late because I procrastinate. I procrastinate because I don't like being done with everything that needed to be done only to find myself waiting. I am ridiculously impatient like that. I know, immature, right? But I can't be late anymore. And honestly, PATIENCE is what God has been trying to teach me for the longest time.

Come April 22nd, I will be officially done with college. Last week, I finished all my requirements for my undergraduate degree and this Monday all my grades are in. So that makes me a BUM from that day the grades were in until the recognition rites. But here I am, relentlessly looking for job opportunities and getting frustrated by the day. Wait, let me explain.

As soon as I found out that all my grades are in and that I am sure, as the rising sun, to graduate this April, I went looking for a job. I searched online and talked to employed friends about it. Got a decent number of offers actually from different companies. That gives me the assurance that I won't be unemployed for so long. I'm blessed with friends who are more than willing to refer me to their HR managers. Anyway, but there's this job position that I am really hoping to get. Thing is, I found out about it just this week and I sent my application email Wednesday afternoon-half a day before the super long weekend holiday in the Philippines. I was actually hoping that the HR would reply before the day ends. But they didn't. I was also hoping that they will call soon but they didn't. Well, it's the holidays anyway. BUT I am really starting to be impatient about it; especially when I found out that Monday is still declared a holiday. So that makes Wednesday through Monday next week holidays! That means, the soonest possible time for them to call me is Tuesday morning. It's that long! :(

Went Visita Iglesia last night with the extended family and all I could ask for was this job opportunity. To be honest, I'm confused. I've been thinking that I'm not sure if I really want the position or if it was just what's the best opportunity I was handed over at the moment. I'm not sure if God has better opportunities in store for me. I'm not sure where He wants me to be. And all I can ask for is enlightenment.

And then it dawned on me, that I have been so engrossed in the promise of tomorrow than what today holds. It dawned on me, that I was so caught up with finding the perfect job and getting employed that I forgot to take a break after all the hard work that I've been through in College before diving into the Corporate World. And most of all, I forgot, that the holy week is here because it is the time of the year when we commemorate the day when Jesus died on the cross to save humanity.

So, I will do my best to be patient. I will do my best to take my time to rest my soul. I will do my best to commemorate the greatest demonstration of true love that mankind has ever had. I will do my best to clear my mind and spend the rest of holy week connecting to our Creator in the hopes that He will enlighten me on my real purpose here on earth. That which will hopefully give me a clue on which job to pursue. :)

Saturday, March 31, 2012

I Testify to Love

Today, I am a witness to the Lord's ridiculously miraculous ways. Today, I am a witness to GOD's generous provision. Today I am a witness to His great love for me. 

*** 


I have been dead worried when I found out that I need to get 98.75% in the ES13 Final Exam to pass the course. Holy Shmoly. There is in no way I would be able to perfect the exam!

To be honest, I have been complacent. The average of my first three long exams were passing. I didn't think there was a chance that I would get such low scores for the remaining two exams for my grade to cascade that low. But it did. And the thing is, I only found out about it, the day before the final exam.

As I've mentioned in an earlier entry, I opted to not sleep for two days to study for the Finals. I even literally dragged Reygie to tutor me with the things I couldn't understand. I know it was a losing battle. I mean, seriously, a perfect score? WHO AM I KIDDING? But instead of being such a nega-star, I opted to just work hard for it still. Give it my best shot. And fight til the end regardless of chance.

I'm pretty sure I did well in my Finals Exam. BUT I am also as certain that I will not be able to perfect it. I was counting on my professor's words that they might curve the grades. After all, it was my only hope. Mom cried for days when she found out about it. She was so scared that I won't be able to graduate yet. To be honest, it made all the pressure more unbearable. I couldn't sleep for days!

Today, I literally dragged my lazy depressed ass off the bed to brave going to Engg and checking if Sir posted the final standing. As of 4PM, he still hasn't. I don't know which was scarier, the uncertainty or the possibility of a certain FAIL.

I lightened up a bit when I met with someone for dinner earlier in the evening. It was nice to be in a mall and not have to worry about deadlines and other academic requirements. Although, I still didn't help but worry about Trese. And so right there in Trinoma, with Kobe (my laptop) and Sunshine (my broadband plug-it) I sent my professor a message via email. By 9PM, I opted to go home. I left Trinoma and dropped by Quiapo Church to pray for a miracle. My last haggle to the Lord before I'll call it another sleepless night.

In the middle of my sincere prayer, I saw that a lot of people were walking along the center aisle on their knees. I suddenly had this urge to do it. To walk on my knees from the end of the church towards the altar! I didn't know where to start right away. I had to observe the people doing it first. It was kinda embarrassing looking all clueless in the middle of the church, y'know. But the next thing I knew, I just found myself walking on my knees towards the altar, praying with all my heart.:) It wasn't easy. It hurt BIG TIME. It started hurting even before I reached halfway. I cried both out of sincerity and pain on my knees! hihi :) BUT I claimed that if I reach the altar, I will pass the course. I claimed that by the time I go home, my professor would have replied to my email and he will tell me the good news. I claimed that come Sunday this weekend, I will be walking on my knees again, NOT to ask for anything, but to give thanks for the miracle I am yet to receive. And I cannot contain my happiness, when I went home this evening and saw my professor's congratulatory reply. He said I passed the course! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

College is officially over! I will graduate this April! I will be able to march in a pretty ecru dress and wear that iconic sablay. I will be able to make my parents proud!

Tonight, I am a witness to GOD's unfailing forgiveness and relentless generosity. I am Ahjh and I testify to Love. :)

Friday, March 30, 2012

Summer is here!


School is officially over! :) Yahoo! And summer is here! Yehey to colorful clothes :) I can't wait to do my summer shopping. *wink* All the summer dresses, floral skirts, bikinis, sunnies, hats and scarves and a whole lot more! It's my most favorite fashion season.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012


Monday Madness



Sometimes, it is the people we give much importance to. It is the people we value. It is the people we allow ourselves to be vulnerable to. It is they who eventually lets us down.

But then we ask, were they really the ones who let us down? Or do we just expect too much from them?

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Handog Ngiti

Dito ko natutunang di ko kailangan MANGARAP MAGISA.

***

Dreams have always been something we delightfully envision and build up on as individuals. It is more often centered to our desires making us feel obliged to work hard for it alone. UP PRIME taught me this shouldn't always be the case.

I have always been a BIG DREAMer. In fact, this is exactly what my first execomm evaluation as President contained. Mapangarap daw ako. :) It gained me both commendation and criticism. May mga natuwa. Mayroong hindi. But amidst the mixed reactions, I was blessed to have an executive committee who was willing to DREAM BIG with me. AND who worked hard as ONE TEAM towards the realization of what has become our SHARED DREAMS. ♥ HANDOG NGITI was one of those dreams. Something we initiated as executive committee but WON over and executed with the generous support of the members and even the alumni. :)

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Creative Juices!



Go into the arts. I’m not kidding. The arts are not a way to make a living. They are a very human way of making life more bearable. Practicing an art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow, for heaven’s sake. Sing in the shower. Dance to the radio. Tell stories. Write a poem to a friend, even a lousy poem. Do it as well as you possibly can. You will get an enormous reward. You will have created something. — Kurt Vonnegut

Saturday, March 17, 2012

FOOD: Carinderia Buffet


Filipinos love BIG gatherings. We love being with people- whether in large crowds or intimate circles. We love sharing moments, memories and of course, food. :)

So if you are hundred percent Pinoy at heart, I'm pretty sure you'd love to try this place. Carinderia Buffet is a one level restaurant in V. Luna Quezon City that offers unlimited food and beverages for any guest or group of guests. You can feast on a large variety of Filipino cuisine (appetizers, main courses and desserts included) and staple drinks for two hours. All for the a surprisingly cheap price of Php 119.00! What a bargain!


From the outside, you wouldn't miss the bright and colorful sign calling out to every passerby. For those who will be bringing cars, you need not worry because there's enough parking space in front of the restaurant. Never judge a restaurant by the name because although this restaurant's name is Carinderia, it’s interiors aren't that of a shabby eatery that the name implies. Their fixtures and decorations are a mix of modern and native materials.

As you enter, you will not miss the wooden roof structure that houses the long tables on which the food is served. Surrounding it are wooden tables and chairs that you can gladly choose from. The guest need not fall in long queues or wait for food to be served. You may actually go straight to the food tables, get your plates, fill it up with food and eat right away. Waiters are all around the place to assist you with your drinks and other things as you please.

There are a lot of things to commend this place for. First and foremost, the service. The guard, outside the restaurant, pleasantly welcomes and assists guests when parking. There are no queues for ordering and the waiters are all around the place ready to be of service to the guests should they need any assistance. If you purchase their unlimited beverages, you need not ask for a refill. The waiters will automatically fill it up! Bill out is as easy as a breeze too. Fast service= happy me! :)


Cleanliness is evidently a priority. Every few minutes, the personnel sprays cleaning mixture on the floor and mops. :) All the tables are tidied up the minute the customer leaves the them. I'm very particular with plates and utensils that I use. I like using different plates and utensils for different types of food. I'm glad Carinderia Buffet allows you to use as many plates as you wish. You can actually just get any type of plate piled up at the side counters, every time you go for a refill. The utensils are just within anyone's reach as every table has a utensil tub in its center.

I'd give the food 3 out of 5 stars. The good points are, they really have a wide variety of food. From fish, pork, beef, chicken and even vegan dishes. Also, the crew refills each container by the minute the supply reduces into half! It's like the buffet tables are always full! However, most of them are a bit more oily than I'd hope for. Quality/taste wise, they aren't that exemplary. Hey, this is a carinderia anyway, not a fine dining-restaurant. It stays true to its name :P

Final Verdict: If you are really hungry and you want to feast on as many food as you can reach for, GO for the Carinderia Buffet. Super worth the Php119.00 But if you prefer quality of food over quantity, I guess this isn't the right place for you.

Sunday, March 11, 2012


The thing about fireworks is that, no matter how amazing they are, they were never meant to last. So we stop and stare. We let their awesomeness take our breath away. We savor the goodness while it's there. We wish for it to never end. But it will. Of course, it will.

Monday, February 06, 2012

Help me get through this, Lord. Please. I know You know what You're doing with my life. For the record, I don't. :( Please, if you want to hurt me, hurt just me. Not PRIME. Please. :(

Sunday, January 01, 2012

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I've never been more excited for New Year the way I felt about 2012 :) I knew in my heart that it is going to be my BEST yet. I am claiming all the GREAT things that my heart believes are destined to come my way this year. I know it won't be easy. I know it will take awhile. I know I'd have to struggle a bit. I know I have to work hard. I know I have to outdo my best. I know I have to exceed myself. I will. AND everything will be worth it. AND everything will fall into it's place :)
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