Wednesday, December 28, 2011

I won't let you pull me down. I'm so tired of hearing all your negative judgments about who I am. I respect you BUT YOU DON'T GET TO DEFINE WHO I AM.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

I like you. I really do. And I'm dying to know if it was meaningful to you as it is to me. :(

Sunday, November 06, 2011

You never fail to turn life around every time I hit a dead end. The most difficult situations always turn out easier and for the better. I am one BIG scaredy cat (err. okay. not that BIG *wink*) but I take courage from the fact that You always got my back. So I pray with all my heart that everything I do (even my EPIC failures) give glory to Your name. :)

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Service Beyond Convenience

TORCH is a blessing I never thought I'd ever have. TORCH is the service I never thought GOD would ever entrust me with. TORCH is a privilege that I never thought I'd ever want for myself. 

Earlier this year, I didn't know what to do with my service. I knew I had to leave the community not because I want to. NOT EVEN for self growth (this was the usual reason for our previous cluster heads). Believe me or not, if it was all up to me, I would have done everything to stay. I love what I was doing. I love the people I was with. Ironically, it was for the love of that cluster that pushed me to leave. Because I knew that leaving was the only thing left to do for the entire cluster to grow and STEP UP. And so I did.

Contrary to popular belief, leaving wasn’t easy. I didn’t know where to go. I’ve been serving in YFC’s community program for almost eight years now and the comm-based culture was all I know and all I ever want to be. BUT GOD had other plans for me.

When I was told I’d be the TORCH Sector Servant, I didn’t know how to feel about it. I was beyond grateful for another chance to serve the Lord. I was ecstatic with the thought of facing new challenges with and for Him. My heart was overwhelmed knowing that I have new TORCHies to take care of. BUT I was terrified with the thought of having to deal with new coordinators, new sector youth heads and full time workers. I was scared of having to adjust with the new the culture I am yet to immerse myself with.

I was never good with change. And to be honest, it hadn’t been easy. There were nights, I’d come home real late from the coordination/household/service meetings. I don’t mind spending long hours in service of the Lord but it gets scary to go home alone by commute from Cubao to Manila beyond 11PM on a weekday. Meetings were more frequent than how it used to be when I was still serving in comm-based. Sometimes, my parents wouldn’t believe I was going out for a YFC meeting/event anymore. These plus having to juggle school and other commitments I have for the year.

But working with the TORCH Party Service Team redefined SERVICE and COMMITMENT for me. I really saw GOD working His way through the TORCH Sector Youth Heads and the FTWs (Fulltime Workers). I was amazed and inspired by how dedicated and consistently hardworking the team had been just to make sure that the first Metro Manila TORCH PARTY will be fun and meaningful for the attendees. 

Epiphany dawned on me during the party itself. The worship lead by Kuya Ghamay really helped me listen to what GOD had been wanting to tell me all along- that when things become beyond difficult and overwhelming, I can hold on to the truth that He is ALMIGHTY and with HIM I can do anything. So instead of being scared of having to go home alone by commute, I should take courage in knowing He’ll keep me safe. Instead of complaining about having no sleep because I usually still had to study after the meetings, I should have been grateful for the strength He blessed me with to survive the day. And most of all, instead of focusing on the challenges I’ve been dealing with, I should have been counting the bountiful blessings that came my way because of this great privilege to serve the Lord through TORCH.

 P.S. I would personally like to thank all the YFC’s and Couple Coordinators from Central C who made it to the TORCH Party. It meant a lot to us.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Back to School

Yesterday, I had a number of things to be grateful for. First, Dallas won their 4th win in the NBA Finals, making them the champions for this season! Woot! Second, enrollment has been as easy as the breeze. And last but not the least, the very successful freshie salubong and campus tour!

I was really so happy yesterday. Define high.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I'm trying to walk through a BIG decision that I have to make soon. Life next year would depend so much on this one. I know I want to, but sometimes, getting the thing that you want can be very selfish and immature.

I honestly do not know what to do. I've been dilly-dallying for the passed days. I'm just good at making the wrong decisions and I DON'T want to be WRONG about this one. It's just too BIG of a risk to be wrong. And there will be too many people involved. So help me GOD.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Crazy February

The passed three weeks have been CRAZY. 0.o From exam week to PRIME week to campaign week and elections! Wild.

January 17 - January 28 We've been bombarded with academic requirements as always. Exam dates were a day after the other. Meetings and Errands for PRIME Week also came in a rush.

January 29 Langhap Saya: An outreach program hosted by UP PRIME wherein we painted the walls of the playground in KNL with BOYSEN paint. It was the first day of PRIME Week. It was my first time to ever scrub a cemented wall and paint. It had been a very tiring day for me. But having dinner with KL, KJ, and GT helped me relax a bit. =) That day I found out a very interesting fact about KL. Something that I think made us a bit closer. Something that I'm very grateful for. =)

February 1 Exhibit Launch: I was in charge of the event. And I'd say it was a success. I'm really blessed to have high attendance rates in ALL of my events. =) I'm glad that everyone had a great time. They were all giddy when they saw the PRIME cake. Happy =)

February 3 iNNOVATE: UP PRIME's college wide seminar about innovation. This is something we are proud of. There were a hundred attendees and lots of freebies from our different sponsors.

February 5 UP PRIME's Benefit Dinner

February 7-8 Start of Campaign. Everyone was going bananas. The plans weren't executed as orderly as planned. But we survived. :P

February 9 IE 142 exam. I got caught up with the preparations for the PRIME week and campaign. I'd say I wasn't as prepared for the exam as I planned to be. BUT I'm glad I passed. =) Not good enough, but it's a start!

February 10-11 I got caught in between campaigning and studying. This week was the worst because my period was oh so timely. I was moody, doubly exhausted and terrible stressed.

February 12 IE 143 Exam. I was just glad the exam week was over! AND PRIME week too. I know campaign week is going to be tiring as well but it won't be crucial for my grades anymore. =) HAHAHA 

February 14 Spent the whole day with the PRIME slate and late afternoon til evening with Dear. =) 

February 15 Alloted all my free time campaigning for PRIME and visiting our companies for the different projects I have this semester. Gaaah. ORG Grilling lasted until later in the evening. I even had to stay to practice with the slate for Miting De Avance.

February 16 I had my cam with me this day but I failed to document Miting de Avance. Fail. But it was the day I felt so PROUD to be part of PRIME. Everything was just so amazing. =)

February 17 Elections and Iso Night. I got to bond with the slate and PRIME execomm. No sleep and had to study for 151 quiz!

February 18 UP Fair with Naf. I promised Naf that I would attend UPSURGE with her and although I was half conscious and half asleep the whole day, I made it til half passed ten! HAHA I was crawling on my way home. And fell fast asleep as soon as I hit my bed!

February 19 Baby CJ's Christening! I had to meet JV in Cubao to return his camera but managed to make it to the reception in Chinatown's Best Foods. I'm glad I made it there. The food and the photobooth (and of course the company of our CD friends) are soooo worth it.

February 20 YFC Cluster Assembly. I had to rush preparing for a talk later that afternoon.It was our Valentine's Special and I was tasked to talk about love and relationships. Kumusta naman yun? HAHAHAHHA. But the crowd was more than participative and I got positive feedback after. Happy. Yipee. Yehey.

I'm sorry if I had to keep my stories short. I just have lots of kwento and I don't know how to fit it in one post. I'm tired BUT I'm very pleased with the way things turned out. Thank you, Lord.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Just finished watching tangled. I forgot when the last time I wanted something as badly as Rapunzel wanted to see the floating lights- something that she knew in her heart was meant for her (and it really was for her after all!). What I know is that NOW, I'm almost always scared to want anything so badly because I'm so afraid of not being able to get a hold of it or worse, be able to get a hold of it but lose it in the end.

I am hoping to be the hardcore Ahjh that I want to be. Watch me.

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I feel like I'm juggling too many heavy boulders everyday. It feels so tiring to keep up an A game for everything and everyone every time. Sometimes, I feel like living a different life.

Every morning is but a struggle. Everyday is but a physically and emotionally draining fiasco. Sometimes, it's too much to bear. Sometimes, it's too tiring to move. Sometimes, it's too heartbreaking to even find the will to fight, repeatedly at that. BUT I won't give up. I DON"T QUIT. Because I am Ahjh.

I have to work quadruply hard to survive this semester. I'm ready to do whatever it takes. Growing up starts today.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Major Major Headache

Attended four consecutive group meetings for my 4 IE majors today. Early morning meetup with 143 groupmates for our case. Then company visit and lunch meeting with IE 151 groupmates at Cerealicious, Katipunan. After which, I went straight to the PinkHouse to meet with my 142 groupmates for our case and presentation. Lastly, I met up with Carla and Anna at Starbucks, Technohub to finish the 143 case.

I had to endure a throbbing headache by the time I met with Dear for dinner. Dear was thoughtful enough to massage my head for a few minutes to ease my pain. =) Yihee. Yehey! Sweet. =))

I still have a list of acad stuff to finish before sleeping tonight (that is if I will still have time to sleep.) Tomorrow is another busy day. Gaah. Although technically, I only have one class. I have a lot of meetings and appointments for all the deliverables we have this week

Saturday, January 08, 2011

Sweet Victory!

I have just survived my first hell week of 2011! Woot! =))) Fireworks in the sky, please! It was a struggle. A week-long one! But victory tastes sweetest after real hard work.

Twinbro's birthday party at his place later. Hurrah to my first night out on 2011! Well-deserved one, indeed! =))
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