Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I don't wish upon shooting stars. I don't whisper on wish cottons then blow them away. I never even tried my luck on wish bones. Don't get me wrong, I do believe in wishes coming true. But I do it differently- I light candles and then I pray. I don't believe in luck. But I'm a strong believer of the power of faith. 

Coming from a Catholic School (St. Paul College Makati), I probably know more angels and saints than the average number my friends could give. I memorize a number more prayers and know more about the beliefs, symbolisms and practices of the Roman Catholic Church than any kid of my age. (Yihee feeling bata! HAHA) I've been part of the church choir (singing and playing the keyboards) for a couple of years until I realized that my voice was better off reading the scripture than singing verses. (I seriously do not understand why I was even accepted in glee club back then. Maybe they just didn't want to break my heart!) My religion classes taught me most of what I know about my religion. But it was when I left SPCM that I knew what faith was really all about. Contrary to my mom's belief that MaSci and UP (especially UP!) turned me into a monster, it was actually being immersed in communities of diverse religions, beliefs, and practices that helped me define my own stronger perception of faith and GOD. Definitely not as consistent with the Roman Catholic's as it used to be but more personal. And I guess in the end, nourishing a more personal relationship with GOD mattered more than being merely consistent with a denomination's traditions.

Yesterday, I came with Parel, his mom and his sister to Baclaran Church for thanksgiving. I had to ride the light rail transit line 1. For the Parels' it was their fastest way to get from Kalookan North to Baclaran. For me, it was the much dreaded ride. We walked through the dingy streets of the flea market under the scorching heat of the sun (I forgot to bring my umbrella. Sun buuurn!). It was a looong walk. And I had to endure standing at the sides of the Church until the Novena and the Mass was finished. It was a longer walk on the way back. Parel and I went separate ways with his sister and his mom. They took the LRT Line 1 to Blumentritt. We took the MRT to TriNoma. Went random malling around TriNoma and then went home. 

Went home and ranted to my mom about how hot the weather was, how uncomfortable walking through the flea market was and how long we had to walk before we reached the Baclaran Church. And she told me that that was what devotion is really all about- threading the infamous Baclaran flea market just to visit Him in His church.

She spoke of her adventures when she was younger. Mom is very religious. She spent most of her youth in pilgrimages to wherever and I admire her for that. But I guess the apple fell a bit farther from the tree. I'm not as religious (I won't even qualify as one) and I don't associate churches as "tambayan". But that doesn't mean I have less faith than she has nor does it mean I have more. It just means that we're different. No one is better or worse than the other. Just different. Mom would brave to travel as far as Rome (or more often Antipolo) just to attend the Holy Eucharist. I'd attend mass in Greenbelt and still feel the same presence that GOD wants us to feel. Mom could do novenas and pray psalms only their generation understands and I could pray to Him in colloquial English, Tagalog, French (yihee!), or even in jejemon, and He would hear and understand us both.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that GOD is the amazing god that He is. He wouldn't mind how and as to why we do it. He doesn't need demonstrations of devotions. He just needs to know that we love and respect Him. Every good thing in the world and in our lives in exchange of nothing more but a generous space in our hearts.

I lit the first candle in thanksgiving for the blessing Parel was blessed with recently. The latter three are wishes that I've long been praying for. And which, I know, will come true in GOD's time -- definitely not because I would have been lucky by then, but because I have remained faithful. =))

Friday, October 22, 2010

Cap On The Go

Gerald, Carla, Parel and I joined the 1st San Miguel Yamamura Packaging Competition. It wasn't for a fulfillment of any academic requirement. We just suddenly had the inspiration to design as Engineers (Carla and I are Industrial Engineers; Parel and Ge are Mechanical Engineers).

We were very hopeful about this competition. We were even determined to win! But I guess victory does not lie on recognition alone. In fact, victory is achieved in the simple act of pursuing it. In the end, it was the learning experience that mattered more. =)) Although, the awarding ceremony won't be until the 16th of next month. 


Thursday, October 21, 2010

Truth is, I never really knew the true meaning of friendship until high school.

We were not allowed to play outside the house when we were younger. My playmates were my yayas and older cousins who treated me like a baby (even when I was no longer one). I never knew how to reach out to people, I'm not biologically related to, maybe until now.

It's because of this that I found it real hard to adjust during my first few years in school. Mom had to enroll me into different workshops just so I could learn how to mingle with other kids my age. That's how much of an anti-social bitch I was. I thought I had progress during my latter years in grade school when I started to become part of my first girl group-JCJ. Those were the days when young girls form girl groups and name themselves by joining the first letters of their first names. Silly? Funny, now that I think about it! But I guess friendships in an all-girl school could really be volatile. I don't remember exactly what happened and why it did. But I remember rejection real bad. I remember being "in" one moment and then being isolated the next. I don't remember the pain anymore but I guess trauma hit me hard. Until now, I've become very reserved and picky when it comes to people I get close to. My confidence suffered real bad. I haven't fully regained composure yet. I guess never will.

It was high school at MaSci when people got to appreciate me so much to my surprise. I've been part of lots of circle of friends who valued me and welcomed me in their lives. I didn't have to pretend I'm someone I'm not. And if that wasn't enough, a number of boys even tried pursuing me. Seriously, what were those boys thinking? HAHA.

College came and I've been into more circle of friends than I could ever imagine. I've been blessed with good people I never thought I'd deserve.

Spent the weekend in LB with my birthday bunch! It's been awhile since we last saw each other and I really missed their company. Papoo cooked dynamite. pesto and bolognese for all of us. Never really knew how good he is in cooking 'til this weekend.
Dynamite:Long Chilli plus Cheese plus Ground Beef
Sizzlin Hot!

Not Your Ordinary Pesto!

This is one of the circle of friends I'm proud to have been part of. =)They've been through one of the biggest blows a barkada could go through, but here they are ready to forgive and be forgiven. Met with Parel and Papoo at Gateway before we met with Kath at the H&M bus station.

We suffered the wrath of Juan (the alleged super typhoon scheduled to hit the country the day after) on our way to the bus station. Some of us had doubts whether we'd still be able to go to LB or not. But the decision was unanimous, we'd see baby CJ that day no matter what. And we did.

The road trip was twice as much fun as I thought it would be. We watched the surprise birthday video presentation that Pap made for his mom and dad and tried guessing what these symbols in his baller meant. Can you guess?

 If I were to describe this weekend in two words, it would be "GOOD FOOD".

 That weekend is the start of a lot more celebrations of genuine friendship to come. =)) Looking forward to our next meet up. I know it's gonna be epic. As always. =)

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Hell Week

Worst hell week of the semester ends today. I've been splurging real bad these past days it's depleting my allowance!

Bought a pricey blouse on my way to school today. I needed to do it to feel better. I did. A bit. Not enough though.

Also, I need to buy new lenses already, my glasses is killing me.

Ate at Flapjacks, Technohub with Tonton and Gold today. Studied for my 141 exam tomorrow. I wonder where Dear is. =(

Random constipated thoughts. I'm just waiting for the 3rd episode of Grey's Anatomy to load, then I'll study again. I need to do good on tomorrow's exam. I need to pass BADLY.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Only Then Is It True

The world speaks of its wonderful beginnings and heart breaking endings; unbeknownst that it is at its truest in between. 

When your feelings are no longer hyperbole. 
When you've had enough of each other already. 
When everything is either boring and messy. 
It is true. 

When you're no longer blinded with made-up perfection. 
When you can finally see his quirks and gotten over adoration. 
When everything he does annoys you. 
It is true. 

When he starts to forget everything you say. 
When he won't spend time with you the whole day. 
When you can't sort things out but you say it's okay. 
It is true. 

For that time in between when infatuation fades, 
when nothing about him comes as a daze 
when every day together doesn't count as a date 
Only then is it true. 

When you share a suitcase full of regret 
plus a bagful of memories you choose to forget 
yet its worth all the heart break you get 
Only then is it true. 

For love only is and only will be 
when its stripped of everything the world dictates it to be 
when you break all the rules and choose to see
the magic beyond fairy tales 
the beauty beyond happy endings 
with the person not fit to be Prince Charming 
Only then is it true.
Got this as a surprise from Gold last Friday. Sweet! Literally and figuratively. *wink*

I love having new found friends. We've known each other for quite sometime now, but it was only yesterday, at the PRIME loft, that that friendship was sealed with a confession that caught me by surprise. At our age and with the communities surrounding us, it's hard to find genuine friendships that you can trust on. I'm glad she trusted me with her heart. Totally appreciated it. =)

Recent events has been tiring lately. Friday night til Saturday couldn't have been any worse. But deep inside I know I'm craving for this kind of pressure- the brain-wracking kind. And I know GOD is by my side. Slept the whole afternoon yesterday and watched movies and episodes til this afternoon. I think I've rested enough. I need to get back to work. This week is gonna be one hell of a week. Wish me luck!

Got my first salary from Online Articles. Yahoo. But then again, bills are already lining up. HAHA. Well, at least I won't owe anybody anything. =)
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